Suckage

I may have a fracture at the very very top of my left femur which may be the cause of all this relentless pain I've had for about two weeks. Have to go get a CT to check, because the x-ray wasn't very clear.

Suckage scale of 1 to 10, with 10 being the worst -- about a 13. Damn, damn, damn!

Whether there's a fracture or not, it hurts like hell and no one knows quite what to do about it. I seriously don't know how my brother dealt with nerve pain for 10+ years. I'm such a baby that I just spent ten minutes crying, but I think most of it is frustration. If it's not fractured, I'm going to have to figure out how I can function with the pain without totally doping myself up (though right now, I wouldn't mind a shot of Demerol and 12 hours of sleep). I have things to do. The German prof is counting on me to get his book proofread for English grammar by April (I currently have chapters 4 and 5 out of 12 or 13). I am counting on me to get some stuff done on the dissertation. I don't have any kind of over-the-bed tablr in order to work in bed.

Gah!